I created this whole blog thing
because i've been feeling like i
need to express myself but have no
one to express to.
Lately i have been feeling sad and deppressed. i have been sad before but not like this. i have never felt this way before but i dont know why. i've been feeling worthless like no one cares and i am just a kid and there are other people who have gone throught worse than i have who still live their lives with a smile. i am sick and tired of living my life pretending that i am happy and acting like nothing is wrong, but i cant tell people because i trust no one. i cant. i have no one to talk to i practically have no friends just fake ones who really dont care. i am hurting and i feel like i am dying inside. im scared for myself. what if i change into someone im not? i cant live with myself if i hurt the very few who do really love me cause their all i've got on this earth. and until this moment in life i've always thought that i've had everything put together in life and now i feel like im falling apart. i dont like this at all and i just want to know whats causing it so i can fix it. nobody knows who i realy am on this platet and i am afraid no one ever will. thats whats killing me most about this. i dont want my loved ones to know that im hurt because they cant help me. know one can. i just dontknow anymore, im a kid but its not just some old thing. my parents dont think anything is wrong, they think i am a normal kid, which i am but its just that their not going to help me and i totally understand why.also its just not right i should be enjoying my life cuz a know things are going to get worse. i am sick and i need help but dont know how to get it. i cry so hard at night and i wish and i pray, but it seems like no is listening. i know that there is a god and that when the time is right he will save me. but when and how long is going to take cuz soon im going to burst and my cover will be blown and i will loose everything.
if u actually read this and u actully cared a little.
maybe u could comment and let me know that i might not alone.
and that maybe we all feel like this and that i am not just overreacting.
thay might just save me.
i dont want to die alone
